when the going get tough.... the tough gain 20 lbs!

It's official. I have moved to another city in Texas, I have made some new friends and I've gained 20 lbs.  Now don't get completly discouraged, I am back on my mission to lose the rest of my fifty pounds before Spring Break of 2012.  It is extremely hard to admit that I failed myself and everything that I started in November of 2010, but I guess that is all apart of life. Sometimes we make it and sometimes...bam..we get hit in the face with 20 lbs of fat.

I was eavesdropping  the other day on two women in my office waiting room that were talking about fat verses muscle.  The one that appeared to know what she was talking about was saying something very interesting about how different five pounds of fat is from five pounds of muscle. I believe that she was talking about the amount of space that the two take up in our bodies.  It's hard to believe that FIVE pounds of fat would take up about the space of a loaf  bread in our bodies. I happen to have two of those for thighs, and one sitting across my midsection at this very moment.  Why is it so easy to gain, and so freaking hard to lose?  I'm telling you, I need an extremely tough friend standing over me yelling "put down the fork!" on a consistent basis. I guess that won't happen.

I have fought myself over the last six months living in this new place and forgetting everything that I had actually worked for.  I couldn't control myself. DRinking, eating out late, not exercising at all. I can tell you exactly how I gained each of those 20 lbs. Now, how do I go about getting it off?

Cabin Fever = Weigh Gain

After two weeks of random weather here in Texas, my hopes is that I can finally get back on track with my diet and weight loss.
 I have to admit, being stuck inside because it was snowing outside was not as easy as it would seem. You know how I feel, when your cold you want to eat warm baked things or yummy calorie and carb- filled soups. The first week of February was much worse than the one day off last week. I found myself standing at the pantry door looking at everything inside over and over. Glancing at the pasta,which I haven't touched since November, and wondering how yummy it would be covered in Alfredo sauce.  (Not that I actually had the stuff to make Alfredo, but it was tempting.) We were stuck inside for 5 days that week. My slight stock up if diet friendly items went very quickly and before I knew it, I was wanting to make rice crispy treats. I'll be honest, they were delicious. I was careful to have any other starches that day, but I did eat four or five delectable marshmallowey squares.  I ended that painful week, up 2 lbs (that's what I get for making those damn Special K rice crispy treats...but it may have been worth it :) )
After careful placement of diet friendly appetizers at the Super Bowl Party that Sunday, I was ready to get back to losing weight last week. I did okay, I lost 1.4 pounds last week. I am sadly blaming that on the snow day in which I decided to make french toast for myself... I tried with out the syrup and that lasted all of 2 minutes. ( I was using 40 calorie bread and egg beaters...so it wasn't that bad)
With the first two weeks of February such a let down, I really need to step it up to get back to losing. I am down a little over 20 lbs and (in keeping my spirits up)I am also down 10.25 inches all over. So there is success in this little weight loss game, but not enough so far this month.  I would like to enter March ( month 5 )at least 30lbs down.  Someone hand me a stalk of celery!

A New Year...A Newer Me!

While running around the streets of New York City for a week, I  had several moments worth writing about. For example: I walked 20 blocks from my first cab, after it was pulled over, to my destination, I did  lots of fab shopping and oh yea,  I had  a day full of drinking Sangria on New Years. I am sure that no one is surprised at the fact that I lost weight while on my trip; I am pretty sure that's because I spent like two hours purging over my best friends toilet after brunch with bottomless Sangria. I also had the pleasure of spending that week with four super sexy gay men, which in a nut shell means we had celery for every meal. Not really, but I did at one point have to remind the boys that I was not suffering from an eating disorder and that I actually would need a little more than just a coffee to last me for the day.  My trip was amazing, I had great food (that wasn't too far from my diet, Thank you NYC restaurants), the best company anyone could ask for, oh and I bought super hot high heels.

After taking a small break from the life change I am in the midst of, I am back on my diet with a vengeance...well I was.
 Last weekend I had a moment. I found my self lost in translation or was that lost in a sea of Carbs. I had to travel for work, which is never easy, and I also ended up with some life altering news. Let me start the next part of my story by saying that everything is fine, and it will all work out for the better. But I will be honest, I let fear consume me. I went right for Italian and a bottle of wine. I was unstoppable. At the time I felt no remorse. But Sunday afternoon, after a trip home with PIZZA (which was thin and veggie but still pizza...oh how I adore you Katy) and Saturday full of bagels, Chinese food, a few drinks and yes more pizza. I felt like shit. I really let myself down. I want to be thinner and I was willing in a moment to gain those lost pounds back. It really makes one realize how I got this way in the first place, I guess how most of us get there. Just having bad eating decision after a night full of drinking after bad eating decision. No wonder this world is thriving on ways to help people lose weight.  I guess tonight, after three days of sticking to my plan again, I can honestly say its worth skipping on the bread or not topping something with cheese for long enough to get my weight under control. After all I am not doing this for anyone but me.  In all life decisions I have to remember that.
Now lets break this little plateau I am treading in...